Head fogged day

I am not sure what is going on in my head or with my body. I have been sleeping most of the day. I woke first at 6, then went back to bed as I thought the alarm was set for 7. At 8 I woke again, took my morning meds, turned on Charmed and fell asleep (which is normal) But i can't seem to get myself to wake up completely. I have avoided taking round two as I really don't want to sleep the rest of the day. I have a headache and just feel icky. But I also have not had any pepsi yet today. Maybe that is part of the headache but still I am just befuddled. In fact it is really upsetting to me.

I know it has to have something to do with the depression, our own money situation, keeping Jesse occupied without the TV. Thank God he learned how to ride his bike. He spends a lot of time on it and over at the park now. Which is a blessing in itself. I want to join him and will as soon as I switch the seats back on our bikes. That new rectangle one is great to sit on but you cannot peddle and sit on it. Darn it.

Tonight is the TKD movie night at Fountain Stone theatre. We are seeing Kung Fu Panda. Jesse wants to see Indiana Jones. Which we may do later, but not two in one day. Good golly. Never mind the cost, I don't think I can sit thru that loud of noises for four hours.

I really need to call and schedule with Rachel. I need to see her and see what she can suggest. I cant tell if I am over medicated or just simply screwed. the pain is the same so what more can they do? I haven't heard whether pt has been approved and my car is in the shop for overheating. My world is crashing in on me and I am suffocating

Do I wish I hadn't lent the money out? Only in times like this. I love helping others, but I need something coming back in. Disability hasn't hit. And I'll be darned if i ask my parents for advice let alone money. I dug my hole, I have to find a way out.

Then there is the crown that fell out and needs to be out back in I know there is very little left on my Caid dental so I am holding off as long as I can so I can maybe afford it. Looks like it is time ti trim the budget. But what to go? TKD I am afraid. and the house phone. That would free up 70 + 60. esp with gas prices getting as high as they are. i hate to do that to jesse but i don't have much choice. i'l talk with mr harrington and see what we can do. i know the benefits far outweigh the cost, but i cannot do this. i have actually stretched myself way too thin. and i am paying the cost. my body is paying the cost. maybe i can have jeff and brian work with him some this summer until i can afford to send him. so much for my smiling face when we go to classes. maybe this is part of my stress. ya think? i know i am tighter now than i have been in a loooonnnggg time.and i am beginning to hide bills from myself, like tht will work.

ok, so now i will go take round two take my nap and take jesse to see the show. gotta do something.