Things are shifting around here. I have been on a roll. Standing up for myself and Jesse is feeling so empowering. I repossessed the Buick from Eric and Julie. With the way my life had been snowballing, seeing her drive it out to Uncle bud and Aunt Nancy's created a rage in me that was the final straw in my hat.

I took the keys back and told her it would remain parked. Aunt Val thought maybe her mom would be interested in buying it, but I have found out that she is not. So, now I am going to have to sell it myself. Of course I need to clean it up first. The tree sap made the window screech to loudly, I nearly went off on her (Julie) again for it. For not taking care of that which was not yet hers in the first place.

I sent my resume off for a position as a healthcare coordinator. We'll see if I get a positive response from that. Or a response at all.

The trip to Ohio that I am so excited about may not happen after all. Unless I can come up with the money in the next few days, we are screwed. And I am devastated. Beyond words. I am not sure how low I will feel if we can't get there. If only, a miracle could happen. I know there is always next year, and I will be there next year, but it just kills me to not be able to go this year. to finally meet others like us. i just want to start crying now.